The Beauty of Suffering

"When agony flood thy soul...look up and let the sun rays bath your whole being"

The rain fell in a ceaseless bone- jarring torrent. The deafening sound muffled my weeping as I let my grief-stricken heart bleed through my tears. I was consumed with deep lamentation as I think of my future- immediate death or long excruciating death. Sorrow, fear, dread, anguish, and blinding pain emotionally and physically rocked my body with helplessness as huge rivulet of tears cascaded on my face. My hope, faith and happiness experienced a grand avalanche.I felt so small and vulnerable as I gritted my teeth and clasped my hands to try to hold on. Until finally, I stopped… not because I felt better but because none were left to shed anymore. My heart aches with unfathomable emptiness as I fell in bottomless dark hollow of loneliness...It was the time I suffered suffering.

It’s almost eight months now after that fateful afternoon when I was told that I had a cancer. Due to my weak condition, the road to recovery was long and arduous almost like a miracle.

Time crept by and slowly I have recuperated. Thankfully, it wasn’t a cancer. It’s still a wonder though how I survived that ordeal. Staring at my scars brought by my illness filled me with wonder how I made it through the yonder desolate chasm of the cruel storm that beseeched my way.

The blemishes on my body seemed like a badge of valor for the courage that gave me the will to survive. The wound in my heart whence life’s sweetness reside is slowly being healed.

Suffering is an emotional state accompanied by negative emotions and severe pain. It usually threatens one’s sanity and without justice causes irreparable injury.

A famous Philosopher once said, “Suffering becomes beautiful when anyone bears great calamities with cheerfulness, not through insensibility but through greatness of mind.”

What is the beauty of suffering?

As for me, the beauty of suffering was affirmed later on after wrestling with gut- wrenching pain good things came my way and finally I have unwrapped the gift of joy.

It was that unexplainable feeling as I wake up each morning bath with a new dawn of hope. From its vine the kindling of bliss sprouted.

It was finally falling asleep without fear but only faith that comes tomorrow I would still feel the scorching heat of the sun on my skin and touch the mist of the budding flowers and look up at vast horizon of skies.

Character cannot be developed without any complexity. Only through occurrence of suffering and experiencing it in full we can be healed. The upturn feels being enfolded like a plaintive song…the source unknown yet the comfort potent.

The most salient message of suffering is when the purpose is finally articulated. When the realization hit that even the gravest of all afflictions has its reason.

I’ve suffered through long losing streak of endless cruel jokes but the beauty of it finally hugs my heart. The purpose was finally uttered to me…that with the permanent scars I have endured I will be an inspiration to those who fall but can not find the courage to stand.

Fight.

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